. butterflies .

this was me since october 2009 up till june 2011.
pathetic.
i know.

this is me since june 2011.

commonly heard nowadays:  " oi wani, why u smiling sorang-sorang? "

:)

no matter what others think,
i've oweys thought avril is awesomeeeeeee.

bluek.

and now she again proves her awesomess. 
LOVE this song's chorus!

SMILE by Avril Lavigne

" and that's why I smile,
It's been a while
since everyday and everything has felt this right,
and now you turn it all around,
and suddenly you're all I need,
The reason why I smile."

sigh.
i have this uneasy feeling when things are going great. 

but then,

i think it's about time i allow myself
to be HAPPY again.

after all this time..

:)

. bimbo .

definition of a bimbo:

from Oxford dictionary  -->   an attractive but unintelligent or frivolous young woman.

from Dictionary.com  -->  an attractive but empty-headed young woman.

CASE SCENARIO:  (based on a true story)

 Day : Saturday

W was bored, so she texted L.

W  :  hoi, anyone booking u yet today or not? jom kuar, i wanna go watch movieeeeee!!!

L  :  not yet . yeay!!

W  :  yippee!! i wanna watch 'INSIDIOUS' coz my friend says it's a thriller worth watching. pastu boley gi karokkkk!

L  :  okay.

Place : shopping complex in KL.

Time :  after pigging out at TGI Friday's and after singing our lungs out and after 2 rounds of Daytona racing and after 2 rounds of basketball dunking at the arcade. 

W  :  eh, dah 6:45, jom gi nengok movie.

L  :  jommmm. adoi kaki aku cramp pulak main basketball.
(helloooooo, we weren't even playing real basketball! it was just a moving net and we were just aimlessly throwing the balls into the hoop. see, my sister is so smangat till she got leg cramps. hahahaha)

Seated comfortably in the cinema.

W  :  ish cepat la startttt.  (excited coz dah lama tak tengok movie)

L  :  betol ke cite ni best weh?

W  :  tah. member aku yang cakap. tengok je la. ok ok intro dah start.  uuuuuuuuuu  'suspen' nyeeee lagu intro die.

L  :  haha bodoh.

eerie (but actually kinda irritating) intro song plays for soooooooooo long.

a scary nenek's face comes into focus on the screen.

L  :  weh jap....jap!  weh aku dah tengok la movie nihhhhhh!

W  :  woiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! bongok la kau niiii!! why tak bagitau awal-awal! kau ni memang dah nyanyok ke? just now kan i showed u the iklan for this movie, didn't u recognise the boy's face on the posterrrr????  URGHHHHHHHHH

L  :  tak prasan la! the boy isn't even in that many scenes! aku tengok muka nenek tu baru aku teringat la.  (continues laughing to herself)

W  :  urghhhh. yelatu. bongokkk bukan nak cakap! takpela ko tido je la, biar aku yang tengok! (continue to be bengang)  anyway, best tak cite ni?

L  :  best, best.

irritating intro song ends.

1st scene comes up, focusing on a woman's sleeping face)

W ( thinks to herself )  :  wow, her face is so full of freckles and yet it's attractive to look at. 

camera zooms out slowly , snoring sounds are heard.

W (thinks to herself)  :  hey, wait a minute. why do i feel like i'm having dejavu???? dammittttttt, it can't be!!

woman wakes up and walks down the stairs.

W :  weh L, fuck laaa aku pon dah tengok cite ni la! ko tengok eh, jap lagi anak kecik die masok, 2-2 pakai baju sama,

L  :  hah?

W  :  btol laaa. ko tengok je la jap lagi. f*ck laaaaaa f*ck !!!!!!!!!! 

woman sits on the floor of her new home and flips through albums.

her son walks in and they are wearing the same exact pyjamas with monkeys and bananas! 

L  :  huh! damnnnnnnnnnn btol la weh! camne ko boley ingat part pyjamas same ni pulak???

W  :  i dont knowwwwwwwww!!!! arghhhh tensionnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

 ( both bimbos start laughing uncontrollably like crazy people, while taking huge gulps of air trying desperately not to burst out laughing in a cinema full of people watching a horror movie ) 

L laughs while sinking lower and lower into her seat.

W  laughs till tears start running down her cheeks.

W  :  Weh bodo laaa! now what???

L  :  mane aku tau. hahahahaha. tu la, panggil aku NYANYOK lagi!

W  :  bile plak aku tengok movie ni ngan ko dowh?

L  :  ade la, kat umah aritu kan kite balik cuti. pirated DVD tuuuuu

W  :  f*ck weh, aku dah smangat gile nak tengok movieeee!!! urghhhhh!! tension gile, jom ah blah.

L  :  are u serious? membazir dowh duit kau. 26 ringgit tuuuuu

W  :  then? takkan nak tengok lagi skaliiiiiii!!! uwaaaaaa, duit akuuuu, baik aku gune untuk nyanyi lagi 26 lagu mase karok tadiiii!!

L  :  hahahahaha

W  :  jom la, let's go!  urghhhhhhhh!

both L and W get up and get out of the hall.

ticket collector outside  :  eh? kenape ni?

L and W  :  tak jadi tengok!

ticket collector literally burst out laughing :  HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

( he must have probably thought that we chickened out coz we were pengecut!
so NOT okayyy! )

so i went back,
disappointed,
and with another unforgettable bimbotic experience.

oh well, i guess everyone has their own bimbotic moments once in a while, ey.
;)

. simply .

tadi, i simply logged into the friendster site. 

i think it's kinda pathetic that they're so obviously trying to copy facebook with the status updates and the online games....think it's time i deleted my friendster account nway.

tadi, i simply read through my friendster blog.
daym, i mish manipal..  ='(

tadi, i simply surfed you tube and searched for 'STF band'

daym, i mish my days of being a STF bandgirl..  ='(
and it's been ages since i saw a marching band competitionnnnnnn. arghhh. 

tadi, i simply read one of my friend's blogs

and decided to simply try out one of the surveys (lame seyh tak wat bende nihh)

(^__^)

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_______LAST__________
Person u saw: 
guess it has to be my sis la, since we are sitting on our beds opposite to each other, both on our laptops and chatting with each other through facebook. ha-ha.
Talk on the phone with: 

mama, asking me whether she should tapau wantan-mee from angsana for me, and asking me to tapau McD's prosperity burger for her.  

Hugged:    

my not-so-fluffy pillow. 

MSN:  

huh? MSN? does anyone actually use that anymore? hehe. i guess yahoo messenger is still ok. i think the last time i used MSN was like 5 years ago.

_______FIRST_________

Kiss:
guess it was from mama, when i safely popped out from her birth canal on 7th October 1985!   =p 
Serious bf or gf :  
BF - let's not mention names la kay, he's just recently safely married. hehe
GF - rahsia. ha-ha-ha.....
Car:
my baby JKE 711, my one and only till now
school:
the owh-so-awesome London Essex Primary School.
soooo loved it there, won't ever forget the great times i had there, plus the fantabulous teachers there.
Job:
my current not-so-awesome job.

_______BEST________ 

 male friend :  mubin.  
female friend:
gunavathy. azah. deqlynn. 
vacation: 
paris, france - i got to eat a particular ice-cream named frubetto (heh) 
sabah -  awesome beaches, scuba-diving and cute diving instructors 
age:  
aiseyh, such a tough question. hmm.. guess the best days of my life were during the all-girls boarding-school days. STF days were the most awesome. definitely.
i met the coolest batch of people.
i did the coolest things that i never even dreamed of doing
(which reminds me of a tale of how i actually got to be a bandgirl!! it was actually on one fine day, it was a saturday and it was supposed to be a day for aktiviti kokorikulum. me and my friend were in form 1 and in PBSM at that time, and we decided not to go. so we stayed in our dorms, when suddenly we heard the wardens beginning to do spotchecks. so we ran to the toilet on our floor and planned what to do next. just then we saw a girl exiting one of the shower stalls, and told her the wardens were looking for people who were ponteng-ing. then she simply said, "owh i'm a bandgirl. today got no practise." after that, when the warden asked me and my friend, we just said we were bandgirls. so that was actually how i became a bandgirl. damn, i'm so thankful that one particular incident happened! otherwise i would have missed out on being such an awesome and important part of the school.)
crap. i'm so missing those days....!!

memory:

too many to choose from la! to name a few :
--> once in london, i think i was maybe 8 or 9 years old. i was at school and it was recess time. i was wandering around the mobile classrooms. suddenly, i actually saw this one small boy (he was really small, maybe 6 or 7years) being bullied and kicked around by 3 other boys. he was so small, i felt like crying. i dunno how or why ( i guess i felt i was bigger than them) but i went up to the small boy and picked him up and told the rest to buzz off or i'd call Miss Phillips the class teacher. i guess they were surprised to see a foreigner telling them to buzz off so they went away. nway i dont actually remember how the boy looked like. all i remember is, after that, i would go everyday to his classroom and read storybooks to him, for a week i think.

--> in london also, i loved it whenever it was anyone's birthday. the birthday boy/girl would bring a box of sweets (usually a box of yummy Quality Street/ Roses - OMG, i even remember that!) and pass it around to everyone in the classroom, after that he/she would go around to each classroom and ask the class teachers to pick their favourite sweet. that was fun!

--> also in london, but not a very fond one. i had a friend named simranjeet singh. he had a twin sister (whom my lil brother had a crush on. so cute. haha). anyway, they were really nice kids. but one day i went to school and everyone was sad. then our class teacher, Miss Mersh, told us that the twins had died tragically after their dad got in a car with them and blew the car up, seems the parents were having some issues. damn.
** okay, i think i should stop answering this question, coz i might go on and on and on and on and onnnnnnnnnnn................

______WORST________
Time of day: 
when i'm snuggled in my spongebob comforter and surrounded by many pillows, and "FASHION" by lady gaga interrupts my sleep at 6:15 am everyday...ARGHHHH!! 
Day of the week:  
 Mondaysssss!!! d'uh.
Food: 
ONIONS! urghh... and BRUSSELS SPROUTS! and KERANG! ewww...
Memory:
18th Oct 2009



_______TODAY________
What are you doing now:
answering this survey, while IM-ing my, sis while downloading the latest i-tunes, while wiping away 'stuff' from my irritating runny nose!
Tonight:

is so hot and i'm so full. 

Wearing: 

my baju kelawar yang dah lame tak pakai. hehe. uuuu windyyy! 

what did you eat for lunch: 

burger king's french chicken burger. yum. 

Better than yesterday: 
no more scratchy dry throat today! but the runny nose is still there.


________TOMORROW___________
Is:
Monday! but i'm on leaveeeeeeee. haha. nice.
Got any plans:
dump some money into my ASB account.
Dislikes about tomorrow:
owh crap, have to go back to Sg Buloh tomorrow. sux.
Goal: 
delay going back to Sg Buloh as long as i can. crap. 
Do you have work: 
i'm working on Tuesday. crap. crap.


________FAVE__________
Number:
seven. 
Song:
gosh, i have manyyyy. but currently can't get "PERFECT" by Hedley out of my head.
Color:
do i hav one?  dont't think so. i'm a colourful person (heh)
Season:
back in london, everyone loved summer coz that's when we would have our hols.
but i loved winter, coz we'd have snowball fights!! (but once, my bro threw a snowball with some dog shit in it, and some of it landed in my mouth!!  frikkin-ewww!) and coz santa claus would come to our school and sit us on his lap and give us presents, and mama would cook turkey with mashed potatoes! hihi. i so wanna be a kid again.





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ockay. 

enuff la tu.
i'm gonna boil me some of the yummy mini cheese-sausages while watching the new movie 'TOWN' by Ben Affleck.

lay-ta!

.despair.

it's a new year.
again.

i just realised that i had an entry about 'new year' just 2 posts before this one.

also, i only had  3 posts  for the whole of 2010.

that must mean either:

a) i was too busy

b) i was too lazy

c) my life got so boring that i didnt have anything to ramble about

statement (a)  
probably true during my last 2 postings which were quite hectic.
yep, that's why i had the time to blog during surgical posting coz it was so chillaxing. (woops)

statement (b) 
partly true.
since the only things i bothered to do when i wasn't working was
either go see my sister or sleep.
hmm..
no wonder, i've gotten so many comments from people (fellow housemen and specialists) regarding my voicemail message "Aku tengah tido atau aku tengah keje. Please leave a message."

( once, my specialist called me and i was taking my postcall shower at the time, later he suggested "Hey, why not change your voicemail to AKU TENGAH TIDO ATAU MANDI ATAU KERJA ?")
woops.


statement (c) :
partly true too.
seems like i have become a zombie with a fixed daily routine for the past 1 year.
sure, there have been some 'magical moments' worth blogging about, but then i guess i have evolved into a lazybum who only thinks about getting as much as sleep as she can instead of blogging nowadays.
actually, come to think of it, i do have some pretty bloggable experiences,
but yep, i'm just too lazy to type them out. 
maybe next time.

anyway, i just scrolled to my previous new year's entry.

and as usual, my new year resolutions have soooo not been achieved.

i only made 3 resolutions in my previous entry.
but only 1 was truly accomplished, i think.

so this year i won't bother to make any.

except the one that i answered when they asked me during my recent viva la.

" to become a more competent houseman, and complete my housemanship successfully, sir!"

yep.

1 more long year to go.

hope all will be ay-okay.

anyway, overall 2010 wasn't such a good year for me.

lots of depressing and sad moments.

am glad to see it go...

till then.

later.