i HATE interviews. so much!

i am a nervous person.

i am an interview-phobic.

i am a viva-phobic.

i am a public speaking-phobic.

aish....snang cakap la, aku nih pemalu la.

(wakakakakaka)

sriusly i hate interviews/viva.

even for the SPA interview today,

yang sumorang dok ckp:

- "ala, chill la. diorang misti pass kan punye"

- "ala rilek a beb. mane de orang penah fail seblom nih"
- "ala xde pe la. diorang memang akan amek kite keje punye!"

ituh pon aku still boley cuak!

palpitations xpayah cakap la.

restless leg syndrome pon ade haa..

like someone was saying mase tgh tunggu turn tadi,

orang A: weyyy this is worse than waiting for MV KUMAR'S viva weyyyy...

orang B: ye la.... if MV KUMAR'S viva, we are preparing to be sent out, which is not that hard to do!
hahaha..

tapi memang agak stress la,
tunggu 4 jam untuk interview yg 10 minit je.
dengan nak kene hafal name2 menteri with titles yang berjela-jela yang lagi panjang lebar dari their actual names!

dengan akak admin yang dok kasi tips2 last minute. (which was good la, but last minute cramming and mugging-up is so stressful!)
dengan catching a glimpse of muke interviewer yang nampak garang. (naseb baek die baek)

eish.

wateva, im just glad it's over.

overall it was ok i guess.

cuma satuh soalan je yang still lingering kat kapla hotak aku nih.

eish.

of all questions, soalan ni la yang auntie SPA tuh nak tanye akuh kan...

auntie SPA: ok hazwani, awak buat elektif kat mane ye dulu?
aku: hospital raja permaisuri bainun, ipoh.
auntie SPA: so, kalau bandingkan patient kat mlake ngan ipoh, mane awak rase lagi ramai?

(crapcrapcrap!!!!! ni soalan jenis ape ni?? trick question ke apeeee? seriusly aku blank gile mase nih, tatau nk ckp pe...ahhhh bantai je ah )
aku: aaaaa..ipoh kot, sbb ward die mmg besaaar and slalu penuh.
(then aku terfikir, tapi ward mlake pon slalu penoh!!dammit.)

tibe2..
DR dari hosp mlake: ooo..so patient kat mlake tak ramai la eh?

(aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....adoiyaiiiiiii! shyte.shyte.shyte! senyuman kambing aku pon terkuar)
aku: aaa...eh ramai jugak, doctor. tapi hosp ipoh tu nampak mcm besar kot. eh tapi mlake ade old block ngan new block kan? hmm. alamak, saya pon tak brape pasti la doctor. he he.
(malu sial. bengang. malu. malu. seb baek laa aku nih tak leh blushing atau pon mmg xnmpk kot kalau aku blush. hahaha.)

dah balik bilik baru aku terpikir,

aku rase jawapan die hosp mlake lagi ramai kot.

sbb perak ade byk hosp

tapi mlake ade 1 hosp je!

dammit.

tadi tak terpiker lak.

i guess dat's just me being me.

maen cakap je, tak piker panjang dulu.

eish....

hope all goes well la.

pliz auntie SPA,
pleeeeease?
hehe.

Just Stuff.

phew.
just finished the 1st MEQ paper 4 sessionals.
which was quite okay,
(lalala...not mentioning the 20 marks i olredi lost due to the so-totally-unexpected ophthalmology question on SQUINT!! eish...nvm. lulus. tu je aku nak.)

this past 1 week a.k.a STUDY BREAK was so fucked-up!
hahaha

i dunno if i was studying hardly,
or hardly studying !!!

nways,
there was 1 day,
i managed to survive ONE WHOLE DAY without checking out facebook!
(ockay, for me, that is a "WOW!!")

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and 2 weeks ago,
i actually (kononnye la) berazam untuk mula membaca suratkhabar,
and so i finally bought MY 1ST EVER NEWSPAPER!!
sadly though,
there it lies on my table,
since 21/07/09,
untouched,
unopened,
unread.
(not even the front cover!)
there goes my failed attempt at improving my general knowledge,
since i am so so so so so so so so DAFT
when it comes to all this stuff about the
menteri's and kononnye important people in malaysia.

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sunday nite,
an ant bit my eye!
yes.
AN ANT BIT MY EYE.
to be more specific,
it bit my conjunctiva.

our bontots were numb from studying,
so we decided to go grab some kfc.
mubin was telling me sumthing bout neonatal jaundice.
suddenly i felt a drop of water on my eyelids.
the next moment,
i was feeling PEDIH-GILE-BABI-MACAM-SIAL in my left eye.

me: mubin, ade bende dlm mate aku. saket gile!
mubin: ah? ye ke? mane, tengok, tengok.
me: ow! ow! pedih!
mubin: btol ke ni?
me: btol la xkan nk tipu!! owww! mubin, fuck saket gile la weh. macam batu je.
(my eyes started watering like crazy)
mubin: alamak, sayang nangis ke? sini2 get in the car sayang, ade lampu. let me take a look.
(i'm rubbing my eyes like crazy)
(in the car,mubin pasang lampu.)
mubin: sini syg, lemme see.
(i retracted my eyelids)
mubin: oh fuck. jap sayang, lemme find my pen-torch.
me: nape mubin!! ade ape! ape die!
mubin: jap sayang, jap. cari torch dulu.
(he rummages around in his messy car to find his labcoat)
me: adoi ckp je la, ape bende tu!! saket gile la ni!
(i start sobbing)
mubin: alamak jap sayang! ok ok dah jumpe. open ur eyes again.
me: cepat la. ow!!
mubin: semut la sayang. besar gile!
me: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! kuar kan la cpat!!!
mubin: ok ok. macam mane. ok we go 2 my house, lemme go get cotton bud ok sayang?
me: ok la ape2 la. asalkan aku tak buta!
mubin: ok ok jom!
(we drive off from gazebo to his house in top speed!)
(he runs into his house and returns with a pack of cotton buds)
me: cepat cepat. pedih nak mampos.
(my eyes are still watering like hell)
mubin: ok2 tahan sket ok sayang.
(he pokes around in my eye with the cotton bud)
me: oww!!! mubin sakeeetttt!! ow ow ow!!!
(i start crying macam budak kecik yang hilang mak)
me: saket saket saket!
mubin: sayang jangan nanges. sket lagi je.
(he continues poking around)
(my crying worsens to a whole new level)
mubin: sayang jangan la nanges.
(even he is on the brink of tears, and nearly crying himself!! hahaha jahat nye aku)
me: dah la tu, saket gile, xpayah la.
mubin: sayang, susah la. jom kite gi klinik ok? i drive fast2 one! please, sayang?
me: (nanges mcm ape tah) ok ok.
(mubin drives off at top speed, swearing at all the slow cars obstructing us, while repeatedly saying "sayang jap eh, dah nak sampai dah, tahan ok".
seriously time tu, aku rase macam pompuan pregnant yang dah ruptured membranes @ pecah air ketumban!!! wakakaka)

at the clinic.
DR: halo. knape ni?
me: ade bende masok mate la doc. pedih!
mubin: ha'ah. tadi dah cube kuar kan tapi takleh la doc.
DR: ok mari sini saya tengok.
DR: aiyo! manyak besar itu sumut! i can see it from here!
me: tau pon! mmg besar and pedih, doc! boleh tak kuarkan skang?
DR: ok ok. aiyo manyak besar lo. akak, tolong amik itu cotton bud.
NURSE: nah, doctor. nape ni dik?
me: semut dalam mata. (adoi brape kali nk ckp)
NURSE: uish besar nye!
me: ha'ah besar. (ish cpat la doc ni!)
DR: nurse, tolong basahkan cotton bud ni.
me: (ha'ah la!! tadi tak terpikir lak nak suruh mubin basahkan dulu! adoi la)
mubin: tadi lupe nak basahkan cotton bud, sayang!
NURSE: adoi nape tak basahkan?
me: (baru nk jawab, tapi doc dah mule korek mate aku)
DR & NURSE: aiyo! die tanak kuar la!
NURSE: yela. die dah gigit kat dalam mata tu!
me: hah??????? (nak mule nangis lagi)
DR: i think we have to use something else. nurse, tolong amikkan forceps.
me: whattttt??!! doc, btol ke forceps!
mubin: chill sayang, chill. ok kot.
me: forceps!! oh my god!
DR: xpe, kejap ye.
(mubin grabs my head and retracts my upper eyelid)
DR: ok aa. u tengok kanan ok, jangan kasi gerak itu mata.
me: okayyy (trembling voice)
DR: ok aa. kejap. kejap. aiyok!
me: nape? ape jadi???
DR: tade ape la. haha. ini u punye sumut.
(he puts a big fat red ant on his table)
me: wahhhh...besar kan doc? (wiping my tears of joy..haha..mcm baru branak pulak)
DR: memang besar! u mau ka itu sumut?
me & mubin: hahhh???
me: no way! haha. xpe la doc, no thank you.
DR: btol ka tamau? ok la u boleh pegi la.
me: yeay! tenkiu aa doc.
mubin: eh doc, u dont have to give her eyedrops ke?
DR: boley la, if u want.
mubin: ok tenkiu doc.

at the counter.
NURSE: nah ini ubat, 2 drops 3 times a day ok
me: eh ni ubat ke placebo ni mubin?
(she actually gave us a kind of small plastic vial with clear fluid in it.)
mubin: tah. macam air kosong je. tah2 saline je kot.
(mubin studies the pack)
mubin: laaa. ni artificial tears la. bapak aku pakai ni!
me: hahahahahaaha. memang placebo la ni.xpela. dah, jom gi kfc.
mubin: ok. meh pakai eyedrops dulu.

so yah,
that was my 1st experience of foreign body in the eye.
haha.
pastu balik library,
mubin: sayang, maybe this is a sign la. we should study foreign body for ophthal!
me: tak la. aku rase ni balasan la, arituh kan aku pijak2 semut2 kat bilik aku tuh.hahaha

daymn.
naseb baek la tak stadi pon
buang mase je
kuar squint bongok tu
haha
(padan muke aku, sape suro tak bace topic penting tuh)

ok la.
ngantoks.
nak tido.
till then.
ciaoooo.
;)