. simply .

tadi, i simply logged into the friendster site. 

i think it's kinda pathetic that they're so obviously trying to copy facebook with the status updates and the online games....think it's time i deleted my friendster account nway.

tadi, i simply read through my friendster blog.
daym, i mish manipal..  ='(

tadi, i simply surfed you tube and searched for 'STF band'

daym, i mish my days of being a STF bandgirl..  ='(
and it's been ages since i saw a marching band competitionnnnnnn. arghhh. 

tadi, i simply read one of my friend's blogs

and decided to simply try out one of the surveys (lame seyh tak wat bende nihh)

(^__^)

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_______LAST__________
Person u saw: 
guess it has to be my sis la, since we are sitting on our beds opposite to each other, both on our laptops and chatting with each other through facebook. ha-ha.
Talk on the phone with: 

mama, asking me whether she should tapau wantan-mee from angsana for me, and asking me to tapau McD's prosperity burger for her.  

Hugged:    

my not-so-fluffy pillow. 

MSN:  

huh? MSN? does anyone actually use that anymore? hehe. i guess yahoo messenger is still ok. i think the last time i used MSN was like 5 years ago.

_______FIRST_________

Kiss:
guess it was from mama, when i safely popped out from her birth canal on 7th October 1985!   =p 
Serious bf or gf :  
BF - let's not mention names la kay, he's just recently safely married. hehe
GF - rahsia. ha-ha-ha.....
Car:
my baby JKE 711, my one and only till now
school:
the owh-so-awesome London Essex Primary School.
soooo loved it there, won't ever forget the great times i had there, plus the fantabulous teachers there.
Job:
my current not-so-awesome job.

_______BEST________ 

 male friend :  mubin.  
female friend:
gunavathy. azah. deqlynn. 
vacation: 
paris, france - i got to eat a particular ice-cream named frubetto (heh) 
sabah -  awesome beaches, scuba-diving and cute diving instructors 
age:  
aiseyh, such a tough question. hmm.. guess the best days of my life were during the all-girls boarding-school days. STF days were the most awesome. definitely.
i met the coolest batch of people.
i did the coolest things that i never even dreamed of doing
(which reminds me of a tale of how i actually got to be a bandgirl!! it was actually on one fine day, it was a saturday and it was supposed to be a day for aktiviti kokorikulum. me and my friend were in form 1 and in PBSM at that time, and we decided not to go. so we stayed in our dorms, when suddenly we heard the wardens beginning to do spotchecks. so we ran to the toilet on our floor and planned what to do next. just then we saw a girl exiting one of the shower stalls, and told her the wardens were looking for people who were ponteng-ing. then she simply said, "owh i'm a bandgirl. today got no practise." after that, when the warden asked me and my friend, we just said we were bandgirls. so that was actually how i became a bandgirl. damn, i'm so thankful that one particular incident happened! otherwise i would have missed out on being such an awesome and important part of the school.)
crap. i'm so missing those days....!!

memory:

too many to choose from la! to name a few :
--> once in london, i think i was maybe 8 or 9 years old. i was at school and it was recess time. i was wandering around the mobile classrooms. suddenly, i actually saw this one small boy (he was really small, maybe 6 or 7years) being bullied and kicked around by 3 other boys. he was so small, i felt like crying. i dunno how or why ( i guess i felt i was bigger than them) but i went up to the small boy and picked him up and told the rest to buzz off or i'd call Miss Phillips the class teacher. i guess they were surprised to see a foreigner telling them to buzz off so they went away. nway i dont actually remember how the boy looked like. all i remember is, after that, i would go everyday to his classroom and read storybooks to him, for a week i think.

--> in london also, i loved it whenever it was anyone's birthday. the birthday boy/girl would bring a box of sweets (usually a box of yummy Quality Street/ Roses - OMG, i even remember that!) and pass it around to everyone in the classroom, after that he/she would go around to each classroom and ask the class teachers to pick their favourite sweet. that was fun!

--> also in london, but not a very fond one. i had a friend named simranjeet singh. he had a twin sister (whom my lil brother had a crush on. so cute. haha). anyway, they were really nice kids. but one day i went to school and everyone was sad. then our class teacher, Miss Mersh, told us that the twins had died tragically after their dad got in a car with them and blew the car up, seems the parents were having some issues. damn.
** okay, i think i should stop answering this question, coz i might go on and on and on and on and onnnnnnnnnnn................

______WORST________
Time of day: 
when i'm snuggled in my spongebob comforter and surrounded by many pillows, and "FASHION" by lady gaga interrupts my sleep at 6:15 am everyday...ARGHHHH!! 
Day of the week:  
 Mondaysssss!!! d'uh.
Food: 
ONIONS! urghh... and BRUSSELS SPROUTS! and KERANG! ewww...
Memory:
18th Oct 2009



_______TODAY________
What are you doing now:
answering this survey, while IM-ing my, sis while downloading the latest i-tunes, while wiping away 'stuff' from my irritating runny nose!
Tonight:

is so hot and i'm so full. 

Wearing: 

my baju kelawar yang dah lame tak pakai. hehe. uuuu windyyy! 

what did you eat for lunch: 

burger king's french chicken burger. yum. 

Better than yesterday: 
no more scratchy dry throat today! but the runny nose is still there.


________TOMORROW___________
Is:
Monday! but i'm on leaveeeeeeee. haha. nice.
Got any plans:
dump some money into my ASB account.
Dislikes about tomorrow:
owh crap, have to go back to Sg Buloh tomorrow. sux.
Goal: 
delay going back to Sg Buloh as long as i can. crap. 
Do you have work: 
i'm working on Tuesday. crap. crap.


________FAVE__________
Number:
seven. 
Song:
gosh, i have manyyyy. but currently can't get "PERFECT" by Hedley out of my head.
Color:
do i hav one?  dont't think so. i'm a colourful person (heh)
Season:
back in london, everyone loved summer coz that's when we would have our hols.
but i loved winter, coz we'd have snowball fights!! (but once, my bro threw a snowball with some dog shit in it, and some of it landed in my mouth!!  frikkin-ewww!) and coz santa claus would come to our school and sit us on his lap and give us presents, and mama would cook turkey with mashed potatoes! hihi. i so wanna be a kid again.





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ockay. 

enuff la tu.
i'm gonna boil me some of the yummy mini cheese-sausages while watching the new movie 'TOWN' by Ben Affleck.

lay-ta!

.despair.

it's a new year.
again.

i just realised that i had an entry about 'new year' just 2 posts before this one.

also, i only had  3 posts  for the whole of 2010.

that must mean either:

a) i was too busy

b) i was too lazy

c) my life got so boring that i didnt have anything to ramble about

statement (a)  
probably true during my last 2 postings which were quite hectic.
yep, that's why i had the time to blog during surgical posting coz it was so chillaxing. (woops)

statement (b) 
partly true.
since the only things i bothered to do when i wasn't working was
either go see my sister or sleep.
hmm..
no wonder, i've gotten so many comments from people (fellow housemen and specialists) regarding my voicemail message "Aku tengah tido atau aku tengah keje. Please leave a message."

( once, my specialist called me and i was taking my postcall shower at the time, later he suggested "Hey, why not change your voicemail to AKU TENGAH TIDO ATAU MANDI ATAU KERJA ?")
woops.


statement (c) :
partly true too.
seems like i have become a zombie with a fixed daily routine for the past 1 year.
sure, there have been some 'magical moments' worth blogging about, but then i guess i have evolved into a lazybum who only thinks about getting as much as sleep as she can instead of blogging nowadays.
actually, come to think of it, i do have some pretty bloggable experiences,
but yep, i'm just too lazy to type them out. 
maybe next time.

anyway, i just scrolled to my previous new year's entry.

and as usual, my new year resolutions have soooo not been achieved.

i only made 3 resolutions in my previous entry.
but only 1 was truly accomplished, i think.

so this year i won't bother to make any.

except the one that i answered when they asked me during my recent viva la.

" to become a more competent houseman, and complete my housemanship successfully, sir!"

yep.

1 more long year to go.

hope all will be ay-okay.

anyway, overall 2010 wasn't such a good year for me.

lots of depressing and sad moments.

am glad to see it go...

till then.

later.

. misery .

" The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you, dear.

Cause I wish you were here.

I'll watch the night turn light blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly.

The silence isn't so bad

Till I look at my hands and feel sad

Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist deep in thought because when

I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink

I'll think of you tonight

(Tonight, tonight, tonight...)

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh if my voice could reach back through the past

I'd whisper in your ear:

"Oh darling I wish you were here"


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..
..
for some reason, lyfe sux rite now.
for some reason, i am a miserable creature, despite cover-ups with silly jokes and fake laughter.
for some reason, i have so much to let out here.
for some reason, i am at a loss of words at this moment.
for some reason, i can't get the above song out of my head.
for some reason, i can't seem to let anyone in.
for some reason, i go through day-to-day life like a zombie.
.
.
for some reason,
i still can't let go.....
...
..
.

 

. dusty .

nearly 4 months olredi since my last entry!

if this were a real diary,
that's what the pages would be,

dusty.

so currently i'm working at a hosp
which seems as if though it was plopped down right in the middle of the highway.

thank god for kewujudan broadband.

or not, i would probably have just given up blog-writing.

   

nways
just as i think i'm sarting to get the hang of things at work,
it's nearly time to change to a new posting again!
i dont wanna leave surgery, coz it TOTALLY ROCKS here!!

( but then, it doesnt mean that i wanna get extended, just so that i can stay longer in surgery...heh)

after this, i dont think there are any more postings that i'm gonna look forward to.
but then life must go on!
slavemanship...  oops... housemanship must be completed!
;)

like i said, surgery here is the coolest posting ever.
the specialists are cool,
the M.O's rock!

but then sadly, the same cant be said about all the H.O's
there have been many issues arising, which i dont think should actually be happening!
and from all these happenings, i discovered something.
ppl can be so damn selfish and hypocritic...

nways,
i'm of course not gonna elaborate on this,
 to avoid bad-mouthing anyone la kan.


but then...
even though this someone i had known throughout college,
and considered as a friend,
was actually the one who was the most selfish,
i just have this to say..

" see, i dont need ur OT calls la wey...
ko tanak sedekah pon, i still managed to get
my appendicectomies (assissted/performed) page filled up, okay.
so there."

and that too, thanks to some colleagues who i only just got to know, for what, a few months je?
gosh...

okla.

cukop la tuh.


myvi aku pon dh siap servis nih.
so nak balik umah.

gotta start studying for my exit viva~!!!!!!!!!!

till the next time then

tataaaaaa

new.

it's 2010!

and i'm starting the new year
with a new job,
and new surroundings,
and new life,
meeting new patients/nurses/specialists/doctors.


though it's scary,
(coz i feel as if i don't remember anything
i studied in med school just a few months back)
but,
i must say,
part of me is actually looking forward to this new challenge in life.


i never really made it a point
to make new resolutions whenever a new year comes up.
coz i know myself too well,
and know that i probably wouldnt have
set about achieving the resolutions.

but this year,
i feel like making resolutions.


1- i think it's about time that i stop waking up in the morning and thinking: 
" oh crap! why do i hav to go to the hospital??
whywhywhy did i ever choose this profession??"
instead.. it's time to be thinking:
" yes, i'm a houseman now,
the slave at the bottom of the food chain all over again!
but, enough of self-pity and complaining,
suck it up and say BRING IT ON!!" 

2- it' time to change my ways of dressing too.
hahaha.
from now on, only really really formal clothes to the hospital,
to avoid scenarios like this:

i was having nite posting
at mlake hospital,
and being me,

i wore my comfortable green sneakers to the ward.
( i so do not see the point in wearing heels when ur job is to stand around for literally the whole day! )

so i went to a makcik's bed
and started flipping through her file
while making small talk with her.
after establishing a rapport with her,
i started to examine her.
she kept looking at my feet,
and smiling to herself.
i just smiled back at her,
knowing that the topic of my shoes would certainly come into our conversation soon.
as if reading my mind,
she said  "dokter, meriah la kasot dokter! hehehe"
i just laughed and said  "ala makcik, kasot ni selesa, makcik. sebab tu saya pakai. lagipon skarang ni malam makcik. hehehe"

and also another time,
i was attending to a young guy.
and he suddenly asked me: "eh, korang ni dulu blaja kat overseas ke?"

i said : "a'ah la. nape eh?"
then he said "blaja kat mane?"
i said: "india. nape eh?"
then he started laughing,
and said: "oooo.. patot le... aku tengok ko ni pakai seluar kaler pink. kawan ko kat situ pulak pakai seluar warna ungu! "
(sigh.. i just dunno why colourful clothing is such a big deal..)


3- another thing i am gonna try to do is
actually use the name that was given to me,
instead of using FRUBETTO or FRU.
i just have gotten so used to people
calling me "weh, FRU" that
sometimes i don't even repond when people call me "wani".

so no more wearing nametags like this to the hospital:

 

well.

since resolutions are a new thing for me,

i guess 3 is enuff.

let's hope i actually do sumthing to achieve them!

and to all my friends,

OLDIBESH in our quest of becoming the slaves of the hospital!!

we can do this la, people!

( i hope i can!)

lastly,

may this year be more prodcutive and fruitful than the last.

bubbye dearest blog..

(seeing as to my extreme busy-ness after this,

i do not know when i will be able to post anything after this!)

;)